My life revolves around my kids. They are what get me through a bad day and yes they can sometimes make a day bad, every parent has those days, lol. So I figured that I should write their birth story and roughly about their first year. So of course I am starting with Shiana.
Me and Jeremy had only been official dating for about 5 months when I got pregnant. I know the weekend that it happened too, lol, fun times at Six Flags. We had gotten an apartment in Sylacauga and they were having a Thanksgiving get together so we decided to go to it. I told Jeremy then that I had not gotten my period and thought I might be pregnant. So we decided to go around the corner to Wal-mart to get a test. When we got back to the apartment it was about 5 at night and I went in the bathroom and it took less then a second for the second line to show. The first words out of my mouth were "Oh S***". I was 18 years old with a crappy job and my first semester in college, in all honesty we were not ready to have a baby. But from then we started to prepare. The next step was to tell everyone. We waited till my parents came home from their cruise to tell them; my mom threw a remote at my head when I told them (had to put that in there and I will tell Shiana and Keylan about it too,lol). It was a rough start to our relationship and we had our fights, but in January me and Jeremy moved in together.
I'll admit it was cool to be living on our own with no rules or parents hanging over us asking what we were doing or where we were going. But, then Jeremy was work all the time to pay the bills and I was in school still. Most of the time he worked out of town which left me alone at the apartment by myself. But, when he was home we would lounge around or hang out with friends and we would also go to walmart in the middle of the night just to walk around. I eventually had my first doctors appointment in January and I was 12 weeks along with a perfectly healthy little baby. I loved knowing that there was a little being growing in my belly. I remember the first time we felt the kicks, we were in the shower and I gave Jeremy a hug and right at that moment we got a nice hard kick. The weeks went by and we had our gender ultrasound, I ended up having to go to it alone because Jeremy was stuck in traffic. That evening I found out that we were having a little girl, I was ecstatic, I had a little girl to put dresses on and the tea parties and ponies; Jeremy not so much at that time, he of course wanted his little boy. So knowing that we were having a little girl we started buying what we needed, most of it was hand-me downs and we were so thankful for them because we would never had been able to afford any of it on our own.
The weeks crept by slowly and we came up with this little girl's name, Shiana Marie. It was different and we like different =) and her due date, July 18, came and went. I was roughly 41 weeks and not dilated or contracting at all, we decided to set-up a day to be induced a week later. The night before I was to be induced we went over to our friends house and talked and played with her 3 month old and then headed home. We made sure everything was by the door and ready to go, picked up and then got in the shower and into bed. Literally just as soon as I fell asleep, I thought I peed myself, my water broke. So we got up and got dressed and went to...walmart. Yup we went to walmart and walked around for about an hour, I was hoping it would start contractions.
Then we headed to the hospital. When we got there we had to go through the emergency room and then headed up to Labor and Delivery. Once we got up there we checked in and my nurse looked at me and said "honey you are a little early you know that right" I told her my water had broke and she said "oh well then lets go have a baby". We got into our room and settled and changed and the IVs hooked up and then Jeremy fell asleep, lol. A few hours later they started Pitocin to get things going and then I started to barely feel contractions. About 9 the anesthesiologist came in to give me my epidural, though I had not asked for it at that time. I was only 2 cm and was wanting more. But I did get some sleep and at noon they came in and checked and I was still 2 cm; at that point we agreed to do the c-section. So at 1:45 ish I was being rolled back to the OR for my c-section. Then at 2:05 PM my beautiful chubby girl was born. She was born July 27th and weighed 9 lbs 9 oz and 21 inches long. Her and Jeremy went straight to the nursery to get cleaned up and then I was rolled over to see her through a window.
From there I went to recovery for about an hour, was suppose to be longer, and then on to my room. Once I got in there, Jeremy was able to bring Shiana in and that is the first time I got to hold her.
So that is enough pictures. I spent 2 days in the hospital and then we headed home. She was a perfect baby, we actually had to wake her up to feed her during the night. But since her birth story is written I will do an overview of the last 4 years with her =)
But it is time for me to put my big girl panties on and get ready. The Big D was moved up, a lot. No dates or anything but me and the kids will be back in Alabama in 3 weeks-ish, and now kinda wishing it could be sooner. The place Jeremy is going has no communication basically, I can deal with deployment and being apart when I can look forward to a phone call or email or letter but now knowing that I probably will not get any of that makes this a lot harder. This really sucks. =( I am honestly on the verge of tears just thinking about it. I will focus on my kids and take lots of pictures(note to self buy another sd card for phone), I will focus on my next term and classes that start September 21, and I will try and get in shape and lose some weight. I plan on walking and eventually jogging/running 4 days a week and I am buying the Zumba or workout game for the Wii since Tyler has one at my parents house and doing that after the kids are in bed at night. I want to be able to do a 5K while he is gone or shortly after he gets back.
DECORATE!!!!! lol. I really want to decorate a room for Keylan. I have two themes that I love and would love to do. One is baby-ish but it is so cute, but the other one is more "big boy".
This is the baby-ish one that I want, but it is Lion King and how can you not love Lion King. I will say that if we every were to have another one, which wont be happening, that this is definite the bedding that we would use. Jeremy likes it too.
And this is the bedding and decor that I will probably go with. I love it and think it is adorable.
Right now though he gets to have a corner in our room decorated because he still rooms with us. Really wish he had his own room, but didn't want to go through the moving and new apartment since we will be moving back home in May and will either get a 3 bedroom apartment, but hopefully it will be a 3 bedroom house with a yard. Haven't thought of redoing Shiana's room since I just got pony stuff and bedding for Christmas. Maybe next year for her birthday we will do her room for her 5th birthday and starting school.
So the big D,deployment, is coming up way to fast. Kinda depressing, actually it is really depressing and stressful. I know that everything will be fine, it really is just hard to comprehend just how fast it is going to get here. We will more then likely go home right before the holidays and spend roughly 2 months there. I am going to try and keep the kids busy and maybe it won't be as hard. But during that time I will have school, should finish 2 terms at least, and setting up some type of school routine for Shiana, lots of pictures and care packages for Jeremy, and saving money. Really looking forward to the last one, lol.
Like most kids, mine still get on my nerves some days, but today I was reminded just how much my babies mean to me. One of the momma's in El Paso that I know had her baby girl earn her wings today. Sweet Caralynn was born April 21 and has been through so much in her short life, but her and her family have impacted so many people. I am reminded that this life is a gift and that at any time it could be our time. Shiana wanted to snuggle for a little while and instead of telling here no, I laid down on her bed with her and snuggled. Keylan did not care much for mommy trying to snuggle him. So no matter how bad of a day you are having, hug your babies and tell them you love them. Also, Jeremy's granny passed on August 6th. So last week was a hard week to go through. My mom explained death to Shiana; when you asked her she would say "Granny Gardner is in the clouds and she is not hurting anymore. And if I want to talk to her all I have to do is talk and I can still give her kisses by going outside and blowing her kisses and she will get them" She handled the viewing a lot better then I thought she would, actually saw her at the casket by herself and just standing there quietly.
But a little happier note, an update on what we have been doing on our trip. So last weekend we went to the beach. Beaches were nasty, we (Jeremy and I) got there about 6 so we ate some pizza and then me, Jeremy, mom, and the kids went to the Track to let shiana play. Her and Jeremy had fun on the bumper cars and boats and Shiana drove a mini go kart all by herself. When we got back to the hotel room the power was out and my laptop completely deleted my schoolwork. The next morning we left early since his granny had passed and we got through those few days. We also took the kids to the zoo and they had a blast and they went and visited my granny. Now we start packing stuff up and getting ready to head back to El Paso and start the long list of things to do there before the Big D Day. Still debating on staying there and coming home just for holidays or the whole time. But I do know I want to decorate Keylan's corner or room.
So we are finally on leave and not going good. Jeremy's Granny Gardner really needs prayers right now. About 3 weeks ago she went in for a lung biopsy because they had found a spot, she has had lung cancer before. It turns out that it cannot be gotten rid of with chemo, already hit her limit with radiation, and cannot remove the lung because of emphysema. She then developed pneumonia and has gone down hill quickly. We need prayers for comfort during this time. Now of us expected this, but I am still determined to have a good trip, especially for the kids. They were pretty decent on the ride here, Keylan hated it because of how active he is and he hated being strapped in, plus he is cutting 2 K9 teeth, ouch. Shiana was ready to get to "MamMaw's world" and we of course surprised my mom. They have been playing outside and LOVE IT! I have to say thank you to my professors for giving me an extension on my assignments. But, I am going to go eat a bite, and drink some Gatorade and water. This heat and humidity might try and kill me and I really hope that Keylan doesn't lose any weight from it. I will write when I can but I have schoolwork, make-up work to finish, and family business to attend to.
Then we headed to the hospital. When we got there we had to go through the emergency room and then headed up to Labor and Delivery. Once we got up there we checked in and my nurse looked at me and said "honey you are a little early you know that right" I told her my water had broke and she said "oh well then lets go have a baby". We got into our room and settled and changed and the IVs hooked up and then Jeremy fell asleep, lol. A few hours later they started Pitocin to get things going and then I started to barely feel contractions. About 9 the anesthesiologist came in to give me my epidural, though I had not asked for it at that time. I was only 2 cm and was wanting more. But I did get some sleep and at noon they came in and checked and I was still 2 cm; at that point we agreed to do the c-section. So at 1:45 ish I was being rolled back to the OR for my c-section. Then at 2:05 PM my beautiful chubby girl was born. She was born July 27th and weighed 9 lbs 9 oz and 21 inches long. Her and Jeremy went straight to the nursery to get cleaned up and then I was rolled over to see her through a window.
From there I went to recovery for about an hour, was suppose to be longer, and then on to my room. Once I got in there, Jeremy was able to bring Shiana in and that is the first time I got to hold her.
