Ramblings

I have a lot of stuff bouncing around in my head and I am hoping writing will release some of it. I made a post on a girl on the upcoming season of 16 and pregnant forward facing her 5 month old. I know I turned Shiana early and I am so thankful that nothing serious happened to her. I am now gunghoe about carseat safety and proud to say that Keylan will be 21 months old tomorrow and has not been forward facing a day in his life. I agree that everyone parents differently, but I cant see why a mom wouldnt do everything in their power to keep their kids safe. At least the minimum with carseats; rear-face till 1 AND 20 pounds. On that post Keylan's weight was brought into play. It has taken me many many many months to except his weight gain and how he is going to be. I blamed myself many nights and constantly worried and I still worry everyday if he is getting enough calories. But to have his weight brought up and call him small (that I already know) feels to me like a kick in the side. On the note of Keylan, my little boy is growing up way to fast. In 3 short months I will have a 2 year old. He learns more and changes everyday and it amazes me. I have been using sign language more often and both kids are picking up on it really well. Keylan can sign more and thank you. I have been looking at birthday party ideas for when we get home, but part of me doesn't even want to do it because it will be well over a month past his birthday when we have his party. But I have been thinking about doing trains or animals. At that time we will also be back in Alabama, and will hopefully be getting our own place at that point so he will get his own room =) I am so excited that he will have his own big boy bed and his own room that I can decorate and put his toys in. Then in July Shiana will be having her 5th birthday and she wants a pony party. Thinking either take her to Oak Mountain to go horseback riding or rent a pony for an hour to use at the party. I will figure it out when we get closer to her party though.